As I write the words that I see on my screen, my mind flashes back to the very young child that would skip down the hallway of school and sing jingle bells. Yes, that child was me. The wonderment of Christmas was always in my heart.
As the years past, I would be the one that would be wanting to put the Christmas tree up as soon as the Thanksgiving meal was done. Enjoying the Christmas movies, listening to the radio of all the Christmas songs and most of all enjoying the family, friends and good genuine attitude from everyone this time of year. Not much has changed, I still love it all.
This year however, a sadness has entered my heart. This year, is the first and hardest year I have had to face with the holidays. My Mom passed about half a year ago and my Dad has been gone for some time. Mom was the cornerstone of the family season and though I know that she and dad both are watching from heaven, It doesn’t make it any easier. This year, I continue watching the movies listening to the “happy” christmas songs and trying to overcome the aching in my heart. Somehow, I understand more than ever the song ” Where are you Christmas? “
One hard lesson that I have learned this year is overcoming. A simple word, and yet so very complex. I know that my heart is healing. And, with the rest of my family and friends this will not only make us stronger, it will also make us closer than ever before. The good times, the memories are far from over we will continue to enjoy everything that comes with the holidays but maybe in a different way seeing everything in a different light.
The one thing I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is that life is but a vapor, so my wish for everyone, no matter where you are in your life, or what you have been through, love everyone. Be the light, be the inspiration, be the difference in someone’s day. Make the phone call, give the hug, make the time. And by all means, tell everyone in your family, and your friends how dear they are to you. Wether it is saying I love you or just letting them know that the door is always open, do it, it will make all the difference, and make this the Merry Christmas to remember.
I know, my sister, I feel ya. And I have thought EXACTLY the same way about that song WHERE ARE YOU CHRISTMAS? I have struggled to find the same magic of Christmas that I used to. Somewhere along the line, the sparkle has dimmed. I used to be the one nagging about the decorating and the trees. I felt that spark of excitement.
But things changed…
I think if I could get out from under the cloud of a few different things, I might find it again. I have to focus on my blessings, instead of what, or who, is not there.
Our parents worked really hard to create the magic for us. And I believe they are watching, and only a thin veil separates us, and they are definitely with us in our hearts. I tell myself to enjoy the holidays, because it is what our parents want us to do. It’s what we want for our children.
So, the best thing we can do is love each other, and enjoy our life, and our memories.